Wish...

AHAHAHAHHAHA...

Q. "What's your favourite Starbucks' Wish?" ...  

A. "More whipped cream!!! " 

My Holidays have officially begun!!!

No rest for the wicked/weary...but lots of fun, family, love, food. Planning on some snowboarding. Throwing in a wedding. A second special meetings. Clear skies today.  Baking is done. The slow cooker is on. And i'm heading out for a run! 

Looking forward to relaxing mornings of lounging in bed, contemplating life, as the Okanagan sun pours in the window. Hmmm, all i want for chritmas is coffee in bed :)

My world is right side up once more!!

And the sun is shining!!!! In the sky and in my soul. The air is crisp and cool, the sun warm and bright.

 Conrad is sick, but full of silly words, playful tugs, and long cuddles...and the occasional whimper - followed by an impish grin! :p

Everyone is in their new homes, and all their new homes are close to my home! So the Van people closest to my heart are also closest to my house!!

And the December sun shines...causing Vancouver to sparkle!

On a dreary, grey, miserable raining blitz in Van...

"Sending you some sunshine from the prairies. With bunches of love from Home"

A week of moments...

Life is way too short to spend more than a few moments in a pit! Seriously, what a waist of life! I did so many awesome things this week with so many awesome people, yet i barely enjoyed any of them because I was so wrapped up in my own woes and getting more and more warped with every passing moment! 

Yesterday i decided that i needed to give back. I needed to appreciate and acknowledge other's efforts. I had such an awesome night doing nothing spectacular...just giving back. And I woke up still feeling good...a serious freak'n relief!!!! 

And today I baked. Warmth. Glow. Sweet. Tunes. Tea. Chocolate. Pink sweats. Fresh sheets.  A fresh frame of mind. Girl chats with my roomy and with Stef. Time alone that left me 'up'...finally a little piece of me that has returned to my normal.

You can't depend on someone else to make you happy. 

Don't waist your precious moments - live them.

Do whatever is necessary to have inner joy and peace.

Be very careful what you do, what you say, what you write when you are down. Actually, don't make any decisions in a storm. At least wait until you feel semi rational.

Tread lightly when dealing with another's heart.

Be aware of your self - of your inner feelings, fears, tendencies...and how they affect others.

Be thankful for the pillars in your life - they hold you up

 when you're crumbling.

It's so humbling to realize who cares...and who reaches out.

Know, and never forget that God cares...even when Satan tells you otherwise.

Decide how much love you need from some one...what is enough. And if you can live with less. And then don't accept less than that.

Family is always there for you...don't let pride close you off from the greatest support and love that exists. Be there for them, and let them be there for you.  I love my family more than anything else on this planet!

The future is one big black hole.  Keep your options open. 

Learn and move on. Don't wallow. Don't hold grudges.  Don't hold anyone hostage. Forgive.

Take chances...

Don't get stuck on "what could have been"...love what IS. Make changes so you can love what is. 

Peanut butter is a good laxative. But you have to eat an entire jar in one sitting.

too many thoughts...i crave to return to being ME, MOI, CYD

so freaking elusive...this place of contentment and settledness! one moment and it's all wiped away - will it ever truly return????? to keep the inner being at peace even while the waves of emotion and doubt and self esteem roll and rock and crumble...that is my utmost goal in this thing called life.

 

today i went to my Emerald City. my place of healing. my cave. my dark place. my place of peace and rushing waters and living air. the place where i can cry and still grin like a fool because it is so breathtakingly beautiful and whole. a place that is actually more beautiful in the rain. 

we usually know the answer - in the depths of our hearts. it would be so much easier if the answer was just written on the wall, or screeched through the Ramadan public speaker system, or appeared as my screen saver...

"just get through November. it is absolutely the worst month in Vancouver"

I fell in love with Vancouver all over again!!

City streets. City lights. Live tunes. Warm sips. Old theaters. Friendly eyes. Rumbling trains.  The lights of Grouse Mt to guide my feet home.

And tonight the city gave me a gift - I saw the stars!!!